Friday, 18 August 2017

To the love of my life!

I was just sitting idle, thinking about what should I write in my next blog?
Things are very different now, but what is that one thing that has particularly questioned me a lot? Well I am seriously done by emotional blogs, and then suddenly this question reminded me of something.
You guys might think that it is a Shaadi.com ka advertisement but trust me it is not. This question comes in the mind of every teenage girl.

I am really a “Snow White (Fairy Tale)” kind of a girl who loves to be in her own fantasy world (but that does not mean I don’t live in present). People who know me can relate to it very well. Right? Chalo Coming straight to the point.
I really don’t know who you are, may be you are the one who smiled at me when I was in a metro, or maybe you the one who stared at me when I was at Tapri (coffee shops are not my cup of Tea). Or may be that best friend of mine I had grown up with. Or may be a random Facebook stranger. You can be anyone, and cherry on the cake is that, it is still a mystery.
Well I have met couple of men who pretended to be like you, which obviously turned out to be bad. And I am pretty sure you must be gone through the same as well. Because my true love is you, and yours is obviously me.
But we haven’t met yet. Or maybe we did a couple of times. You could be the one who tagged me in your Bhakti Posts or you could be the one I broke up last year. May be we know each other but not as how it has to be.
I am really done with the concept of finding you. Vaise Sahi hi hai yaar the more delay you take to find me, more lively and cheerful my life gets. Take your time dear, I am really not in a hurry!!
So better wait for me, or maybe you can choose someone who would completely impersonate as the love of your life, but she isn’t the one you are looking for because that’s me.
But Haan you will have the most amazing + entertaining girl of your life, Trust me on that!


 

Tuesday, 27 June 2017

Amor


A girl with the fabulous smile, best dance moves. A girl with a flawless body and even purer heart. A girl who was Sameer’s Best friend. And the girl who fell in love with Sameer but somehow, could not make him fall in love with her.



Sometimes, Love is not a feeling you force upon yourself or someone, it just happens. Unfortunately, life is not a Mohit Suri’s HalfGirlfriend types movie, love isn’t always reciprocated and it doesn’t always end up happily ever after. We all had to learn this hard truth, you wanted to call him just to see how he is or may be that’s too much. You want to share a good news or bad one or you want to tell him about your day or anything interesting that happened, but may be that’s too much as well.

Well the fact is, Love is not really enough. All those fairytales, all those romantic stories and movies you have ever heard and watched lied up to you. Love is never enough. NEVER!

You all would be lying if you guys have not opted for coffee over tapir ki chai, just because your crush or your guy found tapir tacky.

शायद सही कहा है किसी ने...
रिश्तो की गीली ज़मीन पर अक्सर लोग फिसल जाते है।






Wednesday, 10 May 2017

Every Fight Begins with a Fall!!

For many of us it is the moment of adulthood and finally coming to the age of being independent. It is a moment where you define who you are, who you really want to be, the age where you have the whole world in front of you and where the only person who is accountable and responsible for your life is you! Although it is an important milestone in everyone’s life. But many of us we forget one important thing. 
You know what… I think the problem with us “the adults” is that we expect too much and in the end, we get nothing.
She was pumped up as her life was going to begin, adults would treat her better and maybe they would respect who she was and accept the person she wanted to be. The day came and left. Her life moved on. All the expectations fell flat. After some time, she realized the sad reality, She was the same old kid she had always been. She had the same looks, same difficulties, and more struggles. Surely, she had entered the adult world, but there was no magical change from being twenty. Something was missing. As time went on, she began to be more perceptive about the people around her. She grew puzzled with the world around her, she saw people much older than her acting as if either they never been to class 10th or never left class 10th as if they never take life or people around them seriously. 
I am not denying the fact that Good people don’t exist, they do but interspersed among them were so many mediocre characters. She asked herself many times that Is this the person, the adult that she wanted to be? How does she can become something that makes a difference, someone worthy of respect or someone who makes their life worth living.
In real life, age is just a number, and it does not make you grow, it is an experience that counts and matters.
it just requires a change of mind, where we want to take a driver’s seat or want to be a passenger.


Sunday, 9 April 2017

Reality leaves a lot of imagination!

You can’t stop it, you can’t catch it. All you can do is wait…
And hope that when it lands, it lands near and not on you, well you can hope anyway.
I have never been one to follow exact path, I just go over where the current takes me. I want a happy smooth life. 
There’s a strange comfort in knowing that I will never face anything that somebody else has already faced. But it begs a question, what do I never feel that way? Why do I never feel the comfort, why am I always tripped on the side of a cliff.
The most recent thing that I am facing in the road has everything to do between deciding to work and choosing to focus on my creativity. One pays and the other doesn’t and the problem is what field to choose, which bus should I take that can take me to that place where I get all the success I have even though of.
I can see the disbelief in your eyes guys, 
So let me stop you right there and let you know something, I will be embarrassingly honest right now in an admission of guilt, I am not able to choose what I am good at.

I have been miserable for most of my life because of this conflict. It is going so bad that I am still debating with myself regularly if I will ever actually be capable of managing life as an independent adult. I am not sure that I can, that I will ever be able to and I truly don’t understand how other people do it.
Let me give you an example, there was a kid who constantly messed around with his computer and naturally perused a career as a web developer. Or the child fascination for drawing that lead her the way of being a graphic designer.  But guess what? For most of us that does not happen. Most of us look at others choosing effortless career choices with desire, because we are still wondering what we want to be when we grow up. Or we have already grown up (me in particular).
When I ask for help, people give me bucket full of Gyaan (don’t get offended anyone), and say “Do what you LIKE”. What if I don’t know what I like. Most people wonder around to find when they really want to do with their working life.
I don’t want to F*CK up my life, doing nothing and then becoming a housewife. I want to be able to take care of myself.
I just know this is not working, whatever this is!!

I am not perfect, nobody is. I am just trying my best, trying to figure out the most positive thing. I can contribute while I am alive. Getting out of bed at 8:44 and facing another day is not gonna work. 

Wednesday, 1 March 2017

When Worst comes to worst


It is still the hardest job to continue to stay who you are while people pulling you down. People feel the way they feel for a reason. People will take you for granted; they will check your patience level no matter what on earth you do for them or for someone who means the world to you. They will take advantage of your adjusting and giving nature till the point that you don’t speak up about being affected by some of their actions.
People come in our life for many reasons
Sometimes they are there to help you grow,
Or come to lead us to somewhere else, To remind us how beautiful we are, To teach us a lesson, To change you/Or your life, To inspire you for a better life, To provide you with guidance and support.

People don’t always stay, and we should remember that everything happens for a reason.
One of the worst feelings in life that I don't know  why you have come so far. It’s sad, when you don’t have the answer to your “Why”.

I want to do things I enjoy, but I don’t have that motivation to do that. The problem is not lack of interest but Lack of motivation.









Thursday, 16 February 2017

The love above


She is like a summer breeze that gives only the promise of rain. Only promise for a few moments. And then leaves the barren days. The time he opened his heart to someone and she broke it. It hurts because he still can remember her, the words she spoke, they way she moves her lips, the way she talks, the way her first call made his day.

So, I guess this is how we feel to be falling in Love. To be in doubt, fear etc. He made some sincere efforts for someone, he madly loved, who didn’t appreciate it and let go. He knows it very well that she will pass over him again and again. Break his heart at every opportunity she will get and not care for him for weeks and days or may be years but only come back when she needs a shoulder to cry on.

But in the depth of his heart he kept on wondering, why does it seems like there is something beyond time and space, beyond names and religions.

Sunday, 12 February 2017

My name is Khan and I'm Not a Terrorist


वो मुतमइन है की पत्थर पिघन नहीं सकता, मै बेकरार हूँ आवाज़ के असर के लिए
तेरा निज़ाम है सील दे ज़बान शायर की ये, एतिहात भी ज़रूरी  इस बहार के लिए...
“Put a commission together, show me the right way to do it illegally”
An evolution happened when Trump asked me how to do a Muslim Ban, legally: said Ruby Giuliar (former Mayor New York City).

Donald Trump barred citizen of seven Muslim majority countries- Iraq, Syria, Iran, Sudan, Libya, Somalia and Yemen from entering US for at least next 90 days. Trump mind operates like the boardroom scene. Bring everybody in, quickly access who is the weakest and throw them out, and leave the heartiest once to fight it out for another episode. Trump also bans ll refugee admitting for 120 days and bans Syrian refugees indefinitely. It slashes the US refugee quota for 2017 to less than half of the level set by President Obama.
Since the Refugee Act of 1980 the Federal Government has suspended refugee admission only once from September 11, 2001 to 11 December 2001. Trump is using executive authority to reset the refugee quota from 110,000 for 2017 to 50,000. Since 30,000 refugees have already been resettled since October 1 only 20,000 more can be resettled over the next eight months.
But the fact is half of refugees in past 2 years were Christians, refugees from Syria reflected the Country’s religious composition ( almost entirely Muslims).
In his speech (on Friday) Trump spoke about “America First”. It is extremely unfortunate that in his speech outlining his foreign policy goals, he chooses to brand his policy with the noxious Slogan “America First” the name of a national organisation that urged US to convenience Adolf Hitler. America First is a term that evoked innocent idiots and pro-Nazis who wanted to convince Hitler and make friends with them before World War II.
There is no security benefit. Nobody in the country has been killed by immigrants particularly from these 7 nations but is treating everybody from these Country as suspects. This executive is useless as no American has been killed by the immigrants. Americans are more likely to be killed by their own Clothes than immigrants. If we calculate the death ration of Americans i.e. Annual average Deaths by Clothes Melting is 3.3 Million and by Immigrant linked Terrorism is 2.68 Million.
This is opposite from how refugees have been treated in the past. Between 886 and 1924, almost 14 million immigrants entered the US through New York. The Statue of Liberty was a reassuring sign that they had arrived in the land of their dreams. To those anxious newcomers, the Statue uplifted torch did not suggest enlightenment as her creators intended but rather “WELCOME”. Over time, Liberty emerged as the “ Mother of Exiles” a symbol of Hope to generations of Immigrants.
Well Trump’s Muslim Ban will slam US Economy. Now you all must be thinking that how picking up a handful of immigrants and making their living difficult impact the US Economy as a whole? Large US Corporations, which are engaged in the Global Marketplace are increasingly deriving their profits overseas. If they control them from moving people where they need them. That will definitely hurt their productivity.
There will come a time when world will face Global Refugee Crises. If people are worried about US Terrorist attack 9/11, San Bernardino this executive would have prevented exactly none of them but their is an exception for some kind of Refugees.it is true that Trump’s executive order in not a ban on all Muslims but instead banned Muslim travellers from Seven Muslim-Majority Countries.
Obviously, Donald Trump you need to keep your country safe, but you should do that by focusing on people who actually pose a threat. Muslim Ban won’t help security but it will marginalise Muslim.





About

I want to do it all.. I also want to do absolutely nothing!!

I am still discovering who I am, but at twenty I still have plenty of time for discovering, don’t you think?

Blogging is that passion that lit a spark on that dream of mine which made a place where I could share myself with others but sooner or later I realized that my real dream was helping others be heard by lending them a voice. Discipline is the art which I want to master. I feel myself like a Taxi Driver who is completely absurd regarding her destination yet retaining my “INNOCENCE”.